Internet Porn: Harvester of Souls

My generation: Pre-Millennial or Xennial (noting the gray area between Generation X and Millennial) are unique in that we can remember time before the internet. As a matter of fact, we bore witness to the growth of the worldwide web. This new found power brought a lot of conveniences to our doorstep - research became easier, connectivity with friends and family became instant and administrative functions became convenient. However, it simultaneously pumped the demonic into the sanctity of our homes. The current fallout taking place under my generation's watch is a direct byproduct of the most casually addicting drug ever created: The Internet. And with it, something became accessible to every developing young man in the western world - Pornography.


Having grown up side by side with the internet, I was experiencing the bountiful availability of what it offered while my parents were completely ignorant to what exactly it made available. The days of sneaking a pornographic magazine like, "Playboy" into the house and hiding it under the bed were over. OVER! I could watch it on the computer that was in my room because I needed it for school. Little did my parents know, I was also using it for a different kind of education - sex.


I don't need to elaborate on the endless types of promiscuous debauchery available in this category. Suffice it to say that all sexual vices are catered to - even children, which it seems that society is finally taking moral action against in 2020. The dark corners of the internet have no standard nor rules nor filter for who absorbs its content. It simply exists to pervert. In fact, it perverts so efficiently that I would say in regards to the corruption of my generation and every generation thereafter - it is the largest gateway for demonic activity in the modern world.


I can only speak to my personal journey, luckily I was so infatuated with football during high school that I never ventured very far down the path of sexual deviance via internet pornography. In fact, I didn't lose my virginity until college and I lost it to the woman who would eventually become my wife. However, I am not blameless. I spent many nights alone with internet porn allowing the computer screen to pump a distorted view of human value into my brain. I would like to say that my youthful interaction with it was the norm. A young man, navigating his way through the world, searching for someone who finds value in him while simultaneously trying to find value in himself and using internet porn as a means to an end.


I wish it ended there, but it doesn't. I soon joined the Army, which is one of the most cynical and demonic places any individual can volunteer for. Ministry in the military is a necessity (more detail in a future entry). I enlisted in 2008 during the middle of a 2 front war in both Iraq and Afghanistan. An entire generation of Soldiers only know an Army at war. This means that their entire career has been spent on deployment or preparing for a deployment by training in the field. Deployments and field training exercises can be some of the most lonely and tumultuous times a Soldier will experience. I spent those times living in complete debauchery. My intent in sharing this is not to taint the service over inappropriate locker room behavior because I understand that accomplishing missions during war requires young men to live on the blurred line between morality and barbarism. Unfortunately, that line is blurred enough to allow for vices to creep in - mostly as a way for Soldiers to cope with the circumstances.


Fast forward to as recent as 2018. After having been married for more than 10 years - I still watched porn on the internet. In fact, I even followed a few porn stars on social media. I had no conscience about it, either. Even my wife watched porn on a rare occasion. I think we were very nonchalant about it because of the aforementioned desensitization that took place during our youth. Porn wasn't taboo to us - it was readily available and a part of our culture. However, I recall a day where I discovered that following those porn stars on social media bothered my wife. She didn't express herself verbally, but I could tell in her body language that she felt unworthy. It was then that I realized my actions were purely selfish in nature and not only undermined my wife's role in our marriage but lowered her self-esteem. I knew that a successful path forward was one where porn had to be left behind. Following my baptism and complete devotion to Christ through the Church, I began to see the collective damage that pornography has done to my generation's moral compass through the lens of my own experiences.


This is evident by what we prioritize in our country and are collectively battling as top priorities. We have chosen promiscuity, selfishness and killing the unborn. Why? Because we do not respect the sanctity of life or the dignity of the individual. A fundamental aspect of pornography is objectification for personal pleasure. Everything and everyone is simply an object that we use for our own pleasure or we discard due to inconvenience. Let's compare the fundamental aspect of porn to a few major issues plaguing our culture today.

  1. Pedophilia - Stealing a child's innocence for personal pleasure.

  2. Sex Trafficking - Stealing a person's dignity for personal profit and/or pleasure.

  3. Abortion - Stealing a child's life due to inconvenience.

  4. Drug Addiction - Ruining one's health for self-gratification/coping mechanism.

  5. Obesity - Ruining one's health for self-gratification/coping mechanism.

Every one of these issues stems from lack of self-worth and lack of respect for others. Two traits not only absent in pornography, but disparaged upon and vilified. The scariest part: this is merely the tip of the iceberg. At our current trajectory, our culture can be likened to the Titanic.



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